"I am so perfect, so divine, so ethereal, so surreal, I cannot be comprehended… except by my permission…"
~Nikki Giovanni: Ego-Tripping
I don’t know about you guys, but there is nothing that makes me feel more brilliant, more beautiful, more powerful…and yes, more segzy than standing in front of my mirror butt boonkee nekkid, staring myself in my eyes with an innocent half smile and a devilish head tilt as I let the words to Nikki Giovanni’s “Ego-Tripping” run thru my head.
When I was younger, I wasn’t able to do that. You know, stand in all of my “glory” and admire God’s perfection. I always had to have on something to cover myself - even when I was alone. Funny, because back then, I had a better body - smaller tummy, perkier breasts, a brighter smile. But damn if time doesn’t breed wisdom…knowledge of SELF. And with that knowledge comes SELF-assuredness…and yes, a lil’ bit of ego-tripping. Now, I walk around my house nekkid all of the time. I catch glimpses of myself in the mirror and I wink.
The other day, I went for a jog in the rain and when I got back to my patio, I peeled off my clothes (down to my sports bra and boy shorts - no free peep show lol) and just stood for a minute to let the rain beat my skin. Ten years ago, I wouldn’t have been out in the rain on purpose…and definitely not shedding my clothes outside.
Is this a 30-something thing, I wonder? Because as I talk to more and more of my friends, we feel “IT”. As I embrace my Divine Feminine, I hope that all women have an opportunity to go thru this period in their lives. Where you shed the silly, false bravado of your twenties, and finally feel authentically confident. Gaze at yourself in the mirror and say, "Bish, I’m a MIRACLE!" © Ms. Smart, 2010. Secure. Brilliant. Beautiful. Segzy. Powerful. Free.
I definitely know what Nikki was feeling when she wrote that poem. And I hope you do, too. ;-)
"I feel like I can fly…like a bird in the sky…"